April 19, 1964, Sunday. Sad, depressed day. Oh God, I still love Howard. I hope we get back.

Got up about noon and had a terrible headache from last night and a cold, plus I didn’t sleep good, cause I had to sleep in my little brother Preston’s bed. Doug called, he wanted to come over, but talked him out of it. What am I going to do with Doug. He loves me, but I just like him as a friend. I know I’m going to hurt him like I hurt Ernie. Washed my hair and Lauri came over. She told me she saw Howard at the dance last night. He looked so bitchen she didn’t even know him at first. Then she talked to him. She said he looked so depressed and besides he came alone and left alone. I bet He’ll ask Lauri out, but the only way he can get her number is by me. I still love him out of all the boy. Why couldn’t I have been nicer to him. We had fun together and everyone knew us as a couple.

And we we lived Happily Ever After!

The Chiffons – He’s So Fine

It was painful to still be crazy about my ex-boyfriend and have to start dating other guys. So of course it was natural to want to take the easier road and head back into the old dysfunction.  I’d get amnesia  and go into “Happily ever after thinking” –  edit the truth about what he was really like – and only remember the best things about him. Like HE’S SO FINE!

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