March 11, 1964, Wednesday. Mad Day.  I hate Howard so much, I get mad when I think about it.

Drove to school. Cold’s getting worse everyday. Almost fell asleep in class today. I was so tired after school I came home and crashed. Mommie called, she ran out of gas. I had to pick her up. She was real mad cause I forgot to pick up the kids from school. Came home, Surprise! Al called and wanted me to know about Saturday. We’re supposed to double and go out to dinner. Told him Howard hadn’t called and don’t care cause I hate him. And, I think he hates me after last weekend. He probably found some girl at the dance he went to Sunday. (He didn’t ask me to go.) Al told me not to make other plans cause he’ll get a hold of him. The song “Your No Good” is made for Howard.

Was I mad or sad, or is that the same thing.  My heart was broken and I wanted to hurt him.  Funny how I could be madly in love with Howard one minute and hate the next. That behavior continued to play out in relationship after relationship.  So immature and needy.

 He’s No Good by Dee Dee Warwick.

 Don’t Call Me Anymore  by Dee Dee Warwick

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